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Last login: 12 hours agoRealDreamer1976: RealDreamer1976 is a 31 year old single guy from Minnesota, USA.; Likes 1,629 pages, 22 videos, 21 photos • 131 fans • Received 32 reviews; Member since Jun 23, 2006

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StumbleUpon - RealDreamer1976s web site reviews and blog: Apr 28, 5:55pm 1 review journal, poems
http://realdreamer1976.stumbleupon.com/review/6942433/; Dec 13, 2006 2:34am

I feel
the tension in
the world; it drains
my strength like a thirsty vampire.

I feel an ever lurking apocalyptic anticipation
and I realize that part of me wants
the world to hurl itself
into the abyss
finally.

If it
were thus,
right now, I would at
least be able to stop having the feeling
of not-knowing...how? when? where? who? what?
These questions often invade my daily thoughts.Why? Maybe it's because my subconscious knows... The future meaning of my life would come to crystal-clear focus.

To know about the end of days, to witness these events, would at last answer...
What does my life mean? What do I do next? What should I become?
Those endless, unanswered, nagging questions would
suddenly be irrelevant against
the world's
end.

h
o
r
r
i
b
l
e

I
know it is.
It's the easy way out.
It's what I was taught as a child...
That God would smote the sinful and rapture the righteous.
They never fostered the idea that the future was something to look forward to.

I was a sinner in their eyes. I prayed in vain for my secret iniquity to escape doomed hell.
Even now, as I long ago rejected this evil, loathing cult faith, I've
had to start at ground zero. I'm making up for lost time.
Time lost exploring who I am;
like children usually do...
...to answer the
question.

What
do I WANT?!
They anticipated a long,
bright future, and with that question answered,
knew the answers to the next questions. What do I do? Where do I go?

All I can do is pick a course and stay with it; ignore the pervasive apocalypse of the world
Those thoughts which almost make me schizophrenic...
The fear of every person, place, and thing.
The feeling of Oddworld,
where every thing
is really no
thing.

Arbitrary.

Feeling
like a clone whom
has outlived his original self.
Over and over again he sees his end as though
it was passed him and yet he lives on to drift another day. He reinvents himself
once again, taking into account the nucleus and electrons, the oaks and the pines, the forest for the trees, the solar system for the planets, and on and on until he sees the multiverse for the universes and again he sees the nucleus and electrons.
Fear...that no thing is something, that meaning
is a lie wrapped in a
never-ending
riddle.

YTMND - The Un-Funny Truth About Scientology: Apr 23, 7:49pm 194 reviews religion, cults
http://theunfunnytruth.ytmnd.com/; Scientology...their beliefs are innocuous, however, any religion can be twisted and perverted, which seems to be the case here.

xRight-Is-Rightx is right. The dangers radical Jihadist groups may pose are an immediate threat and they need to be DEALT WITH! However...why should that mean that we ignore a disgusting cancer in our own society??

Worst Album Covers #50-99: Apr 19, 4:05am 67 reviews humor
http://www.coverbrowser.com/covers/worst-album-covers/2; ROFLMAO!!

http://www.digital-karma.org/files/images/CheeseSlide.img_assist_custom.jpg: Mar 21, 8:02am 91 reviews photography
http://www.digital-karma.org/files/images/CheeseSlide.img_assist_custom.jpg

StumbleUpon - TMcKs web site reviews and blog: Mar 18, 9:45pm 3 reviews stumblers
http://tmck.stumbleupon.com/; Good Page dude!

Groupthink :: View topic - Offended Muslim Syndrome & Self-Help Support Groups: Mar 14, 7:32am 5 reviews humor
http://www.thepeoplescube.com/red/viewtopic.php?t=1621; I couldn't have said it any better lol

Winamp TV | News: Mar 10, 8:27am 1 review computers
http://www.tv-plugin.com/index.php?id=5,0,0,1,0,0; The efforts to create a TV plugin for Winamp.

Feb 19, 6:42pm: Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Stability |||||||||| 33% Orderliness |||||||||||||| 53% Accommodation |||||||||| 36% Interdependence |||||||||||| 50% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76% Artistic |||||||||| 36% Religious |||||| 23% Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63% Materialism |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Narcissism |||||| 23% Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56% Work ethic |||||||||||| 43% Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 70% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||||| 76% Need to dominate |||||||||| 36% Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63% Anti-authority |||||| 30% Wealth